Recently I had a reaction toward someone who simply accused me of not having done / still not doing something particular, based on pure supposition and totally outside of the context of the conversation we were having.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react to questions based on pure suppositions that were placed out of context, with the result that my focus was redirected from the original context into me answering the question, the 'trick' being the tonality of accusation/denunciation.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed a trigger in myself as the belief 'when I am asked something then I must answer', instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that this is a remnant of school days, where it was consequential to fail to answer a question (an-sir = directing my words as if addressing a sir, where I perceived myself as subordinate, as with the school teacher).
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the trigger in myself as the belief 'I have to defend myself when accused and/or clarify that the accusation is not based on facts/reality'.
I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I am giving away my authority in answering to the person asking questions (as-king) as I do not stand one and equal but subject myself to the other's direction and manipulation instead of taking the starting point of self-direction and self-purpose.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to get nervous when people I have just only met in a social context start asking me questions, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I shift into a "having to answer 'correctly'" mode from school days. Instead I breathe and commit to self-honest communication and/or sharing.
I commit to stop and breathe when and as I see myself in the situation of being asked a question and specifically when based on pure suppositions placed out of context in perceived accusation and manipulation. I see, realize and understand that the belief 'I must answer any and all questions posed to me' is not valid and the solution to be lived is self-direction and self-purpose in an equal and one starting point to ensure I do not allow myself to go into the supposition as a 'sub-position' and fall into past pupil-teacher relationships. In this specific case I see through the situation being an attempt at manipulation to reestablish a sort of balance. So instead of answering I direct the conversation back to the relevant point(s).